i slept for 10 hrs..

went zouk on friday
for JUICE DJ Quest finals
it's a compeitition thingy
and the winner will represent s'pore
to go KL and compete in the regional compeitition
free flow heineken and vodka till 11pm
i met jessie at the dance floor
she's my sec sch fren
she was like standing rite in front of me
but i haven't seen her for years
and i wasn't sure if it's her
so i sms-ed her
hahaha
and i was right
we reunited and started updating each other
yes
at the dance floor
she's still the same
happeningly boy-crazy
she's working for heineken
and she gotta be at every heineken event
technically speaking, she was working dat nite
gotta stay until zouk closes at 4 and do all the closing stuff
like tallying numbers and paper work
not easy huh
we left ard 1+
the music was pretty sucky
and we got bored
maybe it's juz not our type lah
so we headed for supper at balestier
yummy bak kut teh =0~~
slept till 3pm on sat
shiok ah
dat explains why i'm still awake at this hour
heh
went to the Scarlet for mark wang's surprise bdae party
very nice place
ambientic
nicely-themed
but the staff are dressed like draculas
black trench coats with red inner lining
hahaha
after we finished the cake-cutting stuff
whole gang of 13 of us
went marina south for steamboat dinner
and the gang went shenton partyworld for ktv
but i headed home instead
coz 1) i'm not a ktv person and 2) i thot of sleeping early
but look at the time now..
i dunno wat happened oso
hahaha
time simply flew
if i'd known i'll still be awake at this hour
i would have gone to club momo wif zhenjin
heh
been hearing the name of this club recently
wanna go take a look
hmm
mayb next week ba
alrite
i'm beginning to fight the zzz monster aredi (finally)
to bed now
and out of bed 2 hrs later

ciao

secrets..

hmm
reading this can be pretty depressing
most secrets are of regrets
or of unthinkable actions and/or thoughts
only some are light-hearted and funny
kinda sad to noe dat there are so many unhappy pple out there
and i can't do anything about it
i like to see pple happy
i can lend a ear / hand / shoulder
or give advice / hugs to make pple feel better
but my ability is only dat much
sometimes it's not even enuff for my friends
sigh
but
looking on the bright side
there are pple out there
who actually feel happier after visiting the site
coz they realised dat they are not alone
and dat it's ok to feel wat they are feeling
i guess the site is an outlet
as well as a healing ground

as for me
i scroll down the site
and tink abt any secrets dat i have
and i realised dat i dun have any
dat is as extreme / saddening as those posted there
in fact i can't really think if any REAL secret dat i'm hiding
hmm
so
either i'm overly-optimistic
and am able to let go and let live
forgive and forget
or i've got poor memory
or i've aredi let my darkest secrets out without knowing
haha
actually, i do have lah
everyone has secrets
maybe i'll send in a postcard too
hmm

to bed

IT'S FRIDAY TOMORROW!! YAY!!

Singapore Fireworks Festival 2005..

The ever-popular event is back!
Fireworks display will be held on the following four dates of Carnival@Marina
6th August 05, to commemorate the Carnival Opening
8th August 05, as part of the Countdown Party
9th August being National Day
14th August 05, to commemorate the Carnival Closing.
Teams from Portugal, France and Singapore will stage spectacular displays
with a special showcase by the Singapore Team on 8th August
that will be accompanied by the Singapore Chinese Orchestra.

finally managed to get some confirmed info from here
go prepare ur picnic stuff now!!
go make calls!!
call everyone u noe to go!!
everyone muz go for this event!!
trust me!!

i sound like some siao onz promoter like dat
hahaha
no lah
kinda keen on going to watch the fireworks again
kena wow-ed by it last year
plus i saw some fireworks the other day
tink they rehearsing for NDP
triggered me to find out info abt this yr's festival

check out the key events of Carnival@Marina oso

SIAN AHHHH..

in office

waiting for insructions
slacking
looking on the bright side
i'm being paid double for zhuo-bo-ing
and i get company-paid lunch
but seriously
i'd rather be somewhere else
doin something more constructive
sigh

last nite was damn fun
good company of pple
edalene, miaofang, celine, suiqiang, rick, johnson, anthony
and our male lead: mingjun
blue bar bistro @ central mall
nice place
nice ambience
nice music
from a live band of 3 male guitarists
kena aimed to drink
long island tea
johnny walker (black label) wif green tea
tiger beer
dunno y ah
supp to be bachelor's nite celebration thingy for mingjun
but dunno y i was targeted
it all started wif ONE question from anthony
"so how's things wif dat guy?"
me: "??? which guy?"
them: "orh..got more than one ah..muz drink!!"
...
them: "so how? go redang wif who? dat guy ah"
me: "no lah, 5 of us."
them: "wah, 5 ah..muz drink!!"
...
i explained abit about sharing room wif sharon n eric
them: "how did u know him?"
i pointed to edalene
them: "wah..edalene intro ah..muz drink!!"
...
sorry edalene..hahaha
my hp rang and after the call, they continued
them: "who called? guy or girl?"
me: "guy"
them: "orh..guy ah..muz drink!!"
...
and the story goes on..
best part is dat they set a funny rule
i'm not allowed to say "har?" to their questions
if i do, i have to drink
someone tell me
WAT KIND OF RULE IS DAT?!
haha
but alrite lah
they know when enuff is enuff
had really good laughs
and got some really good advice
was the 1st gathering dat anthony toked so much to me
gives me the feeling dat he noes something
either dat or he's really damn smart to read between my answers
and guess his way through
hmm

sian ah
look at the time
i can't help but feel sorry for myself
to be stuck in office
when is this DRP exercise gonna end

arrgghhh

can't slack enuff..

slacked the whole damn day

i was supposed to..
swim
visit grandma
buy bdae pressie for my bro

wat i did..
woke up at 12
nua in bed till 1
looked for food
msn-ed
listen to radio
play piano
prepare to meet eda at 7pm

damn guilty now leh
tmr no time to make up for it some more
gotta work
wth
DRP exercise
disaster recovery plan
or sumthing like dat
sianz
after work having family dinner
for bro's bdae
and i haven't bought anything for him yet
sigh

been feeling funny nowadays
dunno wat to say oso
to those who noe some stuff
think they oso advice until sian aredi
coz there's nothing much to be said/done
hmm

gotta go prepare soon
meeting eda at 7pm
at dhoby ghaut
goin for a bite
then meet anthony and gang
at blue bar bistro
central mall
wherever dat is
we'll figure out later
haha
celebrating mingjun's last fews days of freedom
he getting married in august i tink
marriage
i really wonder how it's like
i mean
it's such a commitment
and it's for life
there's a phrase which i keep in mind
"don't marry someone u can live with, marry someone u can't live without"
so true
but
easier said than done
it's difficult to find someone like dat
and that someone has to feel the same
dat u r someone he/she can't live without

was toking to ronny
abt being faithful
he and his hsemates were pondering abt this..
if a pretty girl offers herself to u ...would u say no?
promises can be made to our bfs/gfs
but promises are nothing but words
and promises can be broken too
hmm

i sound so pessimistic
so unlike me
well
gimme a day off lah

dun worry
nothing happened to me
juz having random thoughts

gotta run

low..

feeling kinda down tonite
not sure why
mood swings ba
no leh
not expecting my period yet
friends
colleagues
office stuff
my career path
my future
sigh
junhui's been saying weird things to me lately
wth
my tummy's been giving me problems
i'm itching all over from 20+ mosquito bites
feel like crying
but the tears dun seem to flow
toking on msn kinda helped
can hide emotions
den after crapping for some time
wun feel like crying le
=D

redang..

photos up
go take a look
in short
snorkelling is fun
i have to get my diving license

nitez

off to redang!!

will be back on monday nite
dun miss me too much eh
heh

short films..

tink i gonna be blacklisted by my frens on msn
haha
been falling asleep wif my comp on
and waking up in the middle of the nite
to a orange-coloured task bar
and everyone offline
hahaha
if u r one of those whom i "ignored"
really sorry ah
din mean to lah
heh
..
supposed to pack my bag
end up falling asleep
haha
i'm goin redang!!
been wanting to go for a looonnngggg time
finally put plan to action
heh
this is where i'll be staying
with 4 other friends
sharon, eric and eric's couple friends
eric is eda's fren
same gang as adrian and jianyang
there's this gang who hang out together
since their sec sch days i tink
i shall call them the jintai gang for ease of future reference
everytime eda asked me out for movies
it's usu wif this big gang
and everytime we go out
i seem to noe new pple
haha
seems like i've been goin out/overseas wif pple whom i dun really noe
kinda getting used to it by now
fun
really
making new friends
and not the hi-bye kind of new friends
new friends who stay
i hope =)
..
here are two short films created by stanley and his frens
Tak Giu
Pink Boy
stanley's from the jintai gang too
the films are really funny
he's the guy in specs
enjoy
..
just to update on my injuries
my arm's ok le
and the bruises are slowly clearing
phew!
heh
thx to all the hugs i received over sms/msn
luff ya pple
muacks
..
to bed now

i miss my right arm..

feeling handicapped

jus realised dat i’ve been taking my ability to do simple acts for granted
acts like
writing
typing
pressing on the tap
stapling papers
stretching across the table to take something
etc etc etc
damn
gotta be ambidextrous man
wth

i fell down on sat nite
at a carpark
thot it was just a small fall at first
a few scratches, dats all
but turned out to be pretty bad
got a pretty bad bruise below my left knee at the side
3 bruises on my right knee
and scratches on my right elbow
reflex lah
used my elbow to support myself as i fell
so the impact was pretty great
i’m not so worried about the bruises
it’s my elbow dats troubling me
it’s hurting pretty badly
point is
it’s not my elbow dat’s hurting
it’s my bicep-tricep area
is there a name for it?
i noe the area between the hand and elbow is called forearm
so the bicep-tricep area is called wat??
backarm??
haha
neway, i was saying
dat area is hurting pretty badly
like muscle ache
and i went gym ydae
but point is
i din work my arms
even if i did exert my arms
both my arms’ muscles will be hurting rite?
but my left arm’s perfectly fine
but den again
i’m also not sure how my fall can link to the pain there
so, hmm
shall wait for a few days and see how lah
meanwhile
i shall try not to be miserable
sigh
i want a hug
=(

low morale..

just heard some stuff at work
feeling like shit now
argh
i want a new job
no
i need a new job

it's friday!!

this week flew past
which is a good thing
was feeling horrible and pms-y
but chocolate did the job
as it always does
hehe
it’s actually scientifically proven
dat it helps release endorphins
so it makes u happy
=D

wasn’t really feeling down
but kinda emotional sometimes
mood swings ah
and i can’t really control my thots mah
questions juz come to me
i want so much to ask
to clarify
to seek answers
yet
i fear wat i seek
like i mentioned
some things are better left unsaid
ignorance is bliss
hmm

i’m not sure wats going on now
but
little acts
words
feelings
from you
really make my day
yes, i do notice stuff
and i really appreciate them
thanks

it’s friday
anybody wanna date me??
heh

back to never-ending work

feels good to noe pple actually care..

2 nights ago
i was finally connected again
yay!!
took me like 3 seconds loh
and my bro can drag 1 week
knn
i shld have done it myself earlier
thot it was some complicated process mah
but by wed i buay tahan aredi
took the cd from my da sao and told her i’ll figure it out myself
and i did!!
heh
..
SI MI SPARE
so ke lian
WHO WHO
I GO KAN HIM
or her
or it
..
this was nanfeng’s way of saying hi
tink he stay at home too much
abit siao liao
or mayb he’s kinda high dat nite
hahaha
was laughing so hard
he ah
funny de
very aloof
seldom express his feelings
dunno wat he thinking
dunno how Es can stand him
hahaha
buddy, if u r reading this
thx eh =)
oh yah
happy [belated] bdae to pillow
muacks to him
..
jianjie
thx for mentioning me in ur blog
it’s ok dat u dunno wat to say
to noe dat u r there
is enuff consolation for me =)
..
ronny
really sorry if i made u feel dat we r drifting apart
was kinda busy dat nite
so din tok much to u
plus my story is kinda long ah
and knowing the time diff on ur side
if i were to start telling u my story
den u no need to slp le
den qian will come whack me for keeping u awake
haha
if u r reading this
thx for being there
next time if we r online earlier den i tell u k
..
to work now
damn tired ah
mayb it's not such a gd idea
to fix my internet connection
coz i'm a msn addict
haha
i miss my bed

accident baby..

A native boy ask his mother.

Boy: Mum, why is brother named mighty storm?
Mum: Because he's conceived during a mighty storm
Boy: Why is sister named cornflower?
Mum: We were watching the moon-landing when she was conceived.
Mum: (pauses, then ask her son) tell me, torn rubber, why are you so curious?

amused..

both said the same thing

mum told me
to ask dad to fetch me tonite
she paused for a while, den added
but if someone is fetching u
den no need ask dad lah

he always said
if ur dad is fetching u
den it’s better lah

okok
i’ll go home myself tonite
no need anybody to fetch

haha

satisfying weekend..

to give some explanation to the 2 entries before this..
to pple who dunno wat went on
i’m sorry
the incident is not one dat i would like to publicise here
to pple who know wat went on
i’m sorry
tink there’s some kind of overreaction on my part
to pple who were there and/or gave advice
thank you
luff ya
muacks
i’m ok now
=D
..
war of the worlds sucked
effects are ok
but the plot is sucky
and the title doesn’t reflect the story
there is no war
it’s just earth under attack
in fact, the aliens din even attack the entire earth
as wif all dreamworks films
everything started and ended in America
the review in fri’s TODAY was rite
it’s nothing more than a chase show
and the ending is anti-climatic
so pls do not watch it unless u r a die hard fan of tom cruise
wanted to chill out at mr. bean after the show
no luck wif seats
so we ended up at a prata shop somewhere in bencoolen
stayed there till we realised everyone was stoning
and finally decided to head for home
..
slacked the whole day on sat
and i really mean the WHOLE day
was feeling a little down
so i sought solace in my piano
music really heals =)
was goin thru my collection of scores
and realised dat some time ago i printed out from the net the score of canon in d
the version as played in the korean show "My Sassy Girl"
this version is so much easier than the one i’ve been playing all along
haha
so i spent the rest of the day trying to perfect it =)
met edalene, zhenjin and erik for a drink at holland v breko
gate-crashed into candy’s bdae party
a girl whom i got to noe only dat nite
she’s a fren of jianyang and gang
cute ah she
turning 23 today
..
had a long day ydae
did my usual stuff in the morning
visited grandma
went gym
had my brows threaded
met rodrick for a drink
..
gym was satisfying
was in the mood to push myself ah
hehe
worked 30 mins on the cross trainer
burnt 300 calories
went for BodyPump
it’s an hour-long non-stop class dat uses weights
plenty of repetitions
lunges, squats, push-ups, sit-ups and of coz, weight-lifting
after dat
i ran 2.4km on the treadmill
i did it within 15 mins!!!
something which i have not done in a long, long while
was damn tired after dat
almost fell asleep in the steam room
haha
oh yah
redken’s hair treatment cream is good
really
but dun tink u can get it off the usual shelves
go get it from Sasa or hair salons
..
my dinner was KFC chicken salad
expensive sia
$5.50 for a few pieces of chicken and some veggie
met rodrick at holland v
he ate dinner at the noodle house beside the coffee shop
we went Coffee Club for a drink after dat
sri was working
and she said i slimmed down!!
heh
was so excited to see her
coz i dunno anyone else there now
kinda sad ah
things changed
people moved on
friendships faded
hmm
guess dat’s life eh
we left the place b4 midnite
he sent me home in a cab
tink i toked too much
haha
but i seem to be the one keeping conversation goin
and i din really noe wat to tok abt
dat can keep both of us interested
hmm
something is just not there
or mayb
it’s just me
hmm
..
miraculously
my body feels ok tdae
except dat my butt and thighs hurt
but it’s not as bad as i expected it to be
guess dat’s a good sign huh
..
to work to work
monday blues ah
someone save me

trust..

calm

the truth is out
but the trust has been broken

enuff said

i need more time now

shattered..

naive

some things are better to be left out in the open
and some things are better left unsaid
but i guess the worst thing is
to find out about the things dat are better to be left unsaid
oh well
better now than later rite
juz wanna say
dun treat me like an idiot and/or toy