feeling crazy..haha..

如果你突然打了个喷嚏
那一定就是我在想你
如果半夜被手机吵醒
啊那是因为我关心

常常想
你说的话是不是别有用心
明明很想相信
却又忍不住怀疑
在你的心里
我是否就是唯一
爱就是有我常烦著你

So~baby 情话多说一点
想我就多看一眼
表现多一点点
让我能真的看见
Oh~Bye 少说一点
想陪你不只一天
多一点让我心甘情愿爱你

喜欢在你的臂弯里胡闹
你的世界是一座城堡
在大头贴画满心号
贴在手机上对你微笑
常常想
我说的话你是否听得进去
明明很想生气
却又止不住笑意
(Oh~)在我的心里
你真的就是唯一
爱就是有我常赖著你

So~baby 情话多说一点
想我就多看一眼
表现多一点点
让我能真的看见
Oh~Bye 少说一点
想陪你不只一天
多一点让我心甘情愿爱你
就这样一天多一点
慢慢地累积感觉
两人的世界
就能够贴近一点

So~baby 情话多说一点
想我就多看一眼
表现多一点点
让我能真的看见
Oh~Bye 少说一点
想陪你不只一天
多一点 让我心甘情愿爱你

So~baby 情话多说一点
想我就多看一眼
表现多一点点
让我能真的看见
Oh~Bye 少说一点
想陪你不只一天
多一点让我心甘情愿爱你
多一点才会慢慢发现

因为你让我心甘情愿

...

u noe who u r
haha

...

healthy relationships..

got this off TODAY newspaper
under "Focus on the Family" column
by Dr. James Dobson
...
10 characteristics of a healthy relationship
...
1) You are each other's best friend, and you genuinely like being together.
2) Communication is easy, natural and free. You can feel that you can tell each other anything without fear of judgment or being put down.
3) You have numerous values and ideals in common and have both demonstrated the depth of your commitment to them.
4) You both - and it's important to emphasise both - think of marriage as a lifetime commitment, and you are firmly devoted to a permanent relationship.
5) When you experience conflict and disagreement, you're able to work it out instead of leaving it to simmer beneath the surface.
6) You love to laugh together. You're entertained by each other and share a sense of humor about the things in life.
7) You feel thoroughly known by your partner, and deeply cared for. You're able to be yourself and still know that you are loved, faults and all.
8) Your family and friends seem to be genuinely supportive of the two of you as a couple. You have confirmation of those who know you best and whom you trust the most.
9) You feel romantic about each other much of the time, but you feel comfortable and content with each other almost all the time.
10) You have a relationship that feels sane and safe and stable. You sense that there's a solid fit between both of you at many levels.
...
haiyoh
think i no need to get married le
u see ah
first, must be attracted to a guy
den muz get to noe him
den muz fulfill all 10
not to forget
he must oso be attracted to me
den get to noe me
den he must feel the same way
before the relationship can work
long process sia
and to tink i used to dream of getting married by 25
dats next yr u noe
how??
u tell me
sigh
but den again
being the optimistic me
i'm still hopeful
haha
pretty much believe in fate
if it comes knocking on your door
the whole process will be very fast le
hee
wish me luck ah

还在烦。。

seems like everyone's been losing sleep lately
my gd fren losing appetite some more
sigh
all these
for wat
i dunno oso
顺其自然
easier said than done
it's not easy to be not affected in some way or another
guys, trust me
we girls are really vulnerable
so pls..
help us refrain ourselves ok
..
met up wif jianjie on saturday
he's back frm UK for hols
went "essential brew" at holland v
really nice place
he's been a faithful fan of my blog
hehe
thx buddy =D
..
so many questions being asked lately
to which i have no answers
dun wish to make any decision
but yet there are things dat need to be done
i tink the most difficult decision to make in the entire world
is to decide whether to follow ur head or ur heart
well, at least to me, dats the toughest decision to make
..
been getting some feedback dat my entries are confusing
esp the one about my "gender confusion"
so, let me clarify
one. i am NOT turning lesbian
two. i am and will always be interested in guys
three. i do not and will not behave like a guy
bottomline: this "gender confusion" term refers only to my mental state
and it's only a fleeting thought
i'm not so much disturbed by it
just so happen dat i was [still am] caught in a situation
similar to dat of a male fren
and i seem to think like he does
and a galfren of mine has been complaining abt her bf
and her complaints are similar to that of my ex-bf
all these happened simultaneously
so, yah
it got me thinking
whether i'm weird to be thinking like a guy
like i said
i'm not really disturbed by it
juz curious
and thx to adrian and jianyang
they said its normal
so i shall juz take their words for it
and thereby conclude dat i'm normal
haha
..
din realise my bro is less adventurous than me
actually i all along adventurous de lah
juz dat i seldom show it
but my frens who went bintan wif me will noe
haha
c'mon, we only live once!! =D
neway
was in the car on our way back from father's day dinner
got into the discussion of cars VS bikes
and everyone was expressing some kind of fear for the latter
dun understand
speed wif car
speed wif bike
same rite
equally dangerous mah
den mum suddenly ask if i always take fren's bike
i said no ah, not many frens have bike
which is the truth lah
so if i ever let her noe dat i tried riding one
or dat my fren went 150km/h with me on it
she'll probably ground me for life
hahahaha
okok, i noe the danger involved
juz wanna try lah
..
goin slp le
continue another day
if not my fren no need slp le
haha
..
to bed

烦。

最近都搞不好自己的心情
在好短的时间内
太多人
太多对话
太多事情
被爱， 真的幸福吗？
爱人，真的痛苦吗？
突然间
好讨厌自己
好讨厌这种无奈
好讨厌这种无助
好讨厌这种茫然
好讨厌这种爱昧

不想陷入无底洞

所以

现在是时候拉开距离了

lots of pics..

pics from my 2nd Bintan trip are up
taken from 3 cameras
spent a hell lot of time rearranging them
lots of repeats
i haven't deleted the repeats
and renamed the photos
so if u can wait
dun click on the link yet
if u kan cheong and wanna see how much fun we had
den go click it now
haha

to bed

hmm..

got this from eda
who got it from antz
kinda reflect human nature
tink abt it

说了又不听
听了又不懂
不懂又不问
问了又不做
做了又做错
错了又不认
认了又不改
改了又不服
不服又不说

??

今天和两个人的通话
让我开始思考自己的想法与感觉
还有最近所发生的一切一切
现在的我，想要做什么就去做
设法让自己开心
又同时提醒自己不要太乐观
千万不要想太多

但有时候
好多的疑问
无数的“万一”
说不完的“如果”

有好多种感觉
哪一个是最重要的呢？
我要如何取得平衡呢？
又要上哪儿找答案呢？

所以我说过

不要对我太好

photos..

photos of my Bangkok trip are up!!
hehe
just finished uploading
ah shit
so late aredi
not enuff sleep again
argh
can't wait to go Bintan [again]
need to run away [again]
going there this time not to think about stuff
but to not think about stuff
sigh
why is life so difficult??

it's been some time eh..

watched 2 movies in 2 days
shiok
haha
monster-in-law & madagascar
nice
funny
but the cartoon was really short
din tink it's really worth the $
hmm
well well
..
bangkok was fun
shop like siao
haha
damn tiring man
weather hot too
trying so hard not to fall sick
photos up soon
look out for them eh
..
goin bintan this thursday
my villa application was successful =D
no, i din strike lottery
juz so happen dat i'm goin out of town for 2 consecutive weekends
wun be taking leave for a long time after this
coz roselyn's leaving end of week
which means raymond is my new leave cover
and rite now
he's still struggling to figure out rose's work
how to get him to cover for me
sigh
he's so stressed he took MC todae
fierce lah, rose
stress him so much
haha
..
been kinda vexed lately
turbulence of emotions
kinda confused of my own gender
not physically of coz
and definitely not questioning my liking for guys
but more like mental ba
hmm
how shld i put it
sigh
another day lah
i can't tink now
din slp last nite
was on the phone til 6
heh
..
to bed