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::world of my own::

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

pissed..

been stoning for the past few minutes
literally
juz staring at the pile of documents in front of me
colleagues went out for lunch
asked them to help me da bao
so as to act like i'm extremely busy
actually, i juz dun feel like moving lah
plus i'm kinda pissed at my officer
dun feel like lunching wif her
yes, i'm petty =Þ

i mentioned some time b4 dat my officer changed
the previous officer seems totally bo chup now
ask her how to announce certain announcements
she juz give vague answers
"last time how u announce one?"
hello, i've been here for less than a yr ok
am i supposed to noe wat happened b4 or have bionic memory??
so i have to look at past records
and do u noe how fucking tedious dat is??
everything is in hard copy
some archived aredi
plus i dun even noe when the previous similar announcement is made
so i have to look thru the entire yr's announcements
can't ask my current officer coz she noes even lesser than me
and she juz authorises everything that i do
i dun even noe if i'm correct or if i left out any info
wtf
it's not MY job to teach my officer ok
the previous officer is supposed to pass over wat
she is supposed to be teaching her to replace her

oh well, now i'm learning it the hard way
figuring things out myself
gain as much knowledge as i can
then move on
i dun really believe in that personally
as in, the selfish way of doing things
but the culture and working habits here is such
and it's every man for himself
so, wat the heck

alrite, enuff of miserable office politics
i tink i juz got myself even more miserable
tink i shld have some more retail therapy tonite

went shopping with gene at taka/wisma last nite
bought a bio-essence package for mum
with a few products in it
cost me close to 60 bucks

and u noe wat
i bought 3 pairs of shoes
all from charles & keith
not 1, not 2, but THREE pairs!!
walked out of the shop feeling like some rich tai-tai
hahahaha
actually, i din pay for all 3 pairs
gene paid for 1 of them
so dat i'll feel less guilty
haha
actually, shldn't feel guilty lah
it's an investment mah
i wun need to buy shoes for a long time
plus got discount
1 of them costs only $16.50
neway, guilty or not
it got rid of all my misery of the day
and the effects lasted all the way till this morning
until i stepped into the office

heard from my colleagues dat there'll be another round of bonus this month
more substantial than the yr-end one
but it's pegged to july's appraisal
and i dun remember having gone thru it!!
coz i was confirmed only in oct
there was a sort of appraisal then
but i'm not sure if it'll be used for determining this round's bonus
i'm really keeping my fingers crossed
having earned more than 2 billion [net] last yr
this bonus shld be really good
no wonder pple can stay so long here

alrite, colleagues are back
time to start work liao
and finish that pile of documents that i was staring at juz now
maybe i'll clock some OT tonite
hehe

Monday, February 21, 2005

sigh..

feeling a little off today
not very sure why
juz not in the mood to work
not in the mood to learn
not in the mood to teach
not.in.the.mood.to.be.in.the.office

sigh

my fren in another dept told me there's an opening
tink i'll be giving a shot at it
heck it
interview next friday
shenton way
job scope is TOTALLY different from wat i'm doin rite now
same pay
closer to home
new experiences

diff stuff to learn
looks gd on resume?
i'm not so sure
i'm here for less than 1 yr
so it might nt look so good that i'm hopping ard so soon
was toking to eda the other day abt this
she said i shld juz move on if there's no prospects
colleagues in my team have been ard for 5 yrs [at least]
some 8, some 10, some even more
not dat i despise them or anything
but i juz dun see myself staying here for so long
at the same position
doing the same stuff
with bits of increment here and there
i can't see where i'm heading towards
like wat will become of me here in say, 5 yrs' time
probably there's no job satisfaction
i do the same stuff
day in, day out
but then again
which job isn't like dat??

sigh

sometimes i feel so aimless
without a goal
not exactly sure wat i'm pursuing
probably coz i lack a certain obvious passion
i envy pple who have it
they aredi planned their entire life early/since young
like "i want to be a doctor/vet/lawyer/environmentalist/engineer/accountant etc"
and they pursue their studies in that certain direction

sigh

adelynn's feeling off nowadays too
sometimes i'm really at a loss when it comes to dat ger
guess i dun really understand her as well as i tink i do
be too harsh on her and she'll crumble
being too soft on her isn't any better
there'll be more dwelling in vicious cycles
adelynn, u shld learn from edalene
and not wallow in self-pity
be more resilient

easier said than done huh
sometimes i can't do it myself

sigh

today's my mum's bdae
and i haven't got her anything
yet

sigh

tink it's my hormones

Friday, February 11, 2005

i can't help it..

i had to stop work to post this entry
i just came acorss a person with the name
Guy de Cock
and his email add is
de_cock_guy@......

i haven't been updating becoz..

i'm having a problem with my computer at home
the monitor wouldn't switch on when the cpu is on
i checked the connection
i checked the power
fine
help!!!! anyone? =~(

i have been/still is/will be busy at work

so
yah
till i get my comp fixed
or get less busy at work
whichever is earlier

ciao