sigh..

feeling a little off today
not very sure why
juz not in the mood to work
not in the mood to learn
not in the mood to teach
not.in.the.mood.to.be.in.the.office

sigh

my fren in another dept told me there's an opening
tink i'll be giving a shot at it
heck it
interview next friday
shenton way
job scope is TOTALLY different from wat i'm doin rite now
same pay
closer to home
new experiences
diff stuff to learn
looks gd on resume?
i'm not so sure
i'm here for less than 1 yr
so it might nt look so good that i'm hopping ard so soon
was toking to eda the other day abt this
she said i shld juz move on if there's no prospects
colleagues in my team have been ard for 5 yrs [at least]
some 8, some 10, some even more
not dat i despise them or anything
but i juz dun see myself staying here for so long
at the same position
doing the same stuff
with bits of increment here and there
i can't see where i'm heading towards
like wat will become of me here in say, 5 yrs' time
probably there's no job satisfaction
i do the same stuff
day in, day out
but then again
which job isn't like dat??

sigh

sometimes i feel so aimless
without a goal
not exactly sure wat i'm pursuing
probably coz i lack a certain obvious passion
i envy pple who have it
they aredi planned their entire life early/since young
like "i want to be a doctor/vet/lawyer/environmentalist/engineer/accountant etc"
and they pursue their studies in that certain direction

sigh

adelynn's feeling off nowadays too
sometimes i'm really at a loss when it comes to dat ger
guess i dun really understand her as well as i tink i do
be too harsh on her and she'll crumble
being too soft on her isn't any better
there'll be more dwelling in vicious cycles
adelynn, u shld learn from edalene
and not wallow in self-pity
be more resilient

easier said than done huh
sometimes i can't do it myself

sigh

today's my mum's bdae
and i haven't got her anything
yet

sigh

tink it's my hormones