peach blossoms..

disturbed

i'm attracting the wrong kinds of guys

weird
freaky
irritating
attached
married

i can name at least one guy i noe for each of the above

WHY

someone please tell me
wats up with u guys huh
i believe in fate
but i DO NOT believe in love at first sight
how can u possibly fall for me after only..
one cup of coffee or
one group outing or
one phonecall
c'mon lah
bullshit
one, i am NOT rich
two, i am NOT pretty
three, i am NOT slim
so what do u want from me?!
play with my emotions?!
a fling?!
an affair?!
a fuck buddy?!

DO I LOOK LIKE I WANT ANY OF THE ABOVE?!

whiny..

aching all over

and i really mean ALL OVER loh
blardy hell

if u r a girl
u will understand
so let me whine
if u r a guy
u dun understand
and u never will
so fuck off
and let me whine

basically
i juz wanna whine

=~~(
*sniff*

chen jianjie

jianjie!!
so sorry leh
didn't call u before u board the plane
coz i fell asleep
hehehe
so..
i'm dedicating this entry to u
and u only
touched anot?
hahaha
u take care over there okay
and stay in touch ah
if not, i'll call collect!!

lonely friday..

whiny

everyone's got plans tnite
except me, dat is

r.a.n.d.o.m.

when something happens
i almost always have the kick to blog about it
but everytime i blog
i'm bound to forget something
either dat
or by the time i get an opportunity to blog
the kick is no longer there
and somehow the thoughts do not flow as smoothly
so now i'm trying to recall all the little little events
dat i wanted to blog but didn't
the events are not chronological order
i'm juz writing as the thots come to me
heh

===
任贤齐 - 《天使也一样》

你为什么不说话
说真的我好心疼你这样
你这样为了他，茶不思饭不想
而这一切我都看在眼里啊

而他也搬出你的家
爱情没有你想象中可怕
你看外面的太阳，温暖而明亮
你可以飞翔飞到我的天堂

天使也一样，也一样会受伤
就算天塌下来，也有我来扛
某年某月的伤，此时此刻遗忘
我会在你身旁到地老天荒

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

而他也搬出你的家
爱情没有你想象中可怕
你看外面的太阳，温暖而明亮
你可以飞翔飞到我的天堂

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只为你、只为你、都只为你，而发光

was tinking of wat songs to download the other day
and this song came to my mind
there was a time
when me and my coffee club colleagues
hit the ktv room pretty often
it was kaiting who introduced this song to us
dunno y
we were kinda crazy over it for quite a while
but now dat i listen to it again after so long
i still tink it's very nice =)
the lyrics were typed by me leh
coz i cldn't find it online
or mayb, i didn't search hard enuff
hahaha
the song brought back memories
mostly good ones
1 ½ yrs is quite a long time u noe
to be working in 1 place
though the pay was pathetic
it was really fun
and i actually looked forward to work
unlike now
i joined dbs last apr
it's not even 1 ½ yrs yet
and i've been dragging myself to work
sighh
===
my mum's student actually recognises me
i boarded the train
this guy boarded from another door
we walked towards 2 empty seats
our eyes met
and he gave me the i-know-you look
and i gave him the u-look-like-u-noe-me-but-i-really-dun-rem-who-u-r look
looking at my confused face
he offered, "我是你妈妈的学生。"
i was like, "oh..ok.." (waiting for him to offer his name)
*silence*
it was kinda awkward
so..i continued listening to my mp3s
and he continued fiddling wif his hp
i was going thru in my head
all my mum's students who noe me
came up with only 1 possibility
decided to take the chance and finally asked
"are u jonathan?"
"no, i'm jackson.."
"oh.." *blank stare*
"my sister was ur mum's student too..ling li.."
"oh!!"
i remember the girl and also remember she has an elder bro
but i totally have no impression how her bro look like
hahaha
so pai seh
anyway
we had some small talk
before alighting at the same stop
and went our separate ways
===
toked to randy on the phone for 2+ hrs
he's my JC fren
funny thing is
having known him since 1998
dat nite was the 1st time we chatted on the phone
actually, dat was the first time we had such a long conversation
involving topics other than school
we met again at the SAJC dinner
he asked me to find out if DBS is hiring temp staff
the following working day
i did and sms-ed him some info
but he din reply/call
turned out dat he was sick and slept thru the day
replied me at 2am saying he'll call me the next day to find out more
i said ok and told him to rest well
realising dat i was still awake
he called and somehow we chatted till 4+am
from the job to his gf and ex-gfs to me
kinda amazing huh
=)
===
the day i went visiting my godson (pillow)
i walked from nanfeng's house to the mrt
something made me take the route
dat passes my ex-bf's house
it's not the yearning kind of feeling
more like the curious kind of feeling
i wanna find out how i'll feel
and wat kind of memories will come back
so i walked
upon reaching the carpark
i saw the result of all the noise he had to put up wif
shelters, covered walkways to the bus-stops
all done up nicely
nearing his block
i instinctively looked for his car
found it without much effort
circled around it for a while
looked at all the changes made
yes, no doubt memories came back
both good and bad
but everything seemed so faraway
like it happened eons ago
and thinking about them
brings about a kind of bitter-sweet feeling
looking up to his lighted bedroom window
i imagined him looking down at the same time and spotting me
(haha, so drama rite..like tv show)
i imagined walking around in his house again
more memories came back
both good and bad
recollecting all my thoughts
no heartache
no regrets
no hard feelings
walking towards the mrt
i realised i've aredi closed dat chapter of my life

still sick..=(

anson is so cute
so small
so fragile
so adorable
i would have carried him if i wasn't sick
till now
i still can't imagine antz being a dad
seeing him cradle his lil' precious son
makes u go "awwww...."

ydae's band prac was fun
except dat i got a tad irritated by junhui's antics
i went for prac to play music
not to embarrass myself by making the band wait
while we took section photos (-_-)














but i figured
since we've taken it
i might as well post it
so u guys noe the cause of my embarrassment
neway, as u can see, there were 5 trombonists!!
left to right, top to bottom
junhui, trevor, jianjie, me, winston
in case u dunno
for alumni band prac
trombone section is usually one-man show
so it's quite exhilarating dat 5 of us turned up
and coincidentally
3 of us wore red
machiam section uniform sia
hahaha

visited grandma tdae
listened to her say the same ol' stuff
had a satisfying dinner at geylang wif my folks and sis
slacked till now

i went to see a doctor after work on friday
at a clinic near my office
felt really bad dat i had to push away all my appointments
but i was really half-dead by the end of the day
had a temperature of 37.2 deg
though it was juz a very slight fever
i was feeling damn groggy on my way home
and the walk from the mrt seemed exceptionally long
it's during such times dat i wished i had a chauffeur
or just someone beside me
to make sure i don't faint or trip and fall into the drain
(and to tink my "slave" is enjoying himself in perth!! @$%^#*$^&@*)
neway, i managed to get home safely
had some dinner, took my med
and concussed till the next day
tink i'm sensitive to one of the meds
made my heart race like dunno wat
i was so breathless it felt like i was running 2.4
i had a similar incident before
and my family doc doesn't consider it as a drug allergy
she simply said i am "sensitive" to the med
i remembered the pill was small and white
but i dun remember the name of the drug
and this time, i've got 2 meds dat r small and white
hmm
tink i'll juz take the cough syrup tnite
and see the doc again tmr for a change of med

to bed

i wanna take mc today..=(

feverish

my face is pinkish from my body heat
yes, i'm feeling warm in my cold office
wth man
but i guess it's kinda good
to have a "healthy-looking" glow when i'm sick
heh
i haven't switched on my computer for 2 consecutive nights
i slept b4 11pm last nite and b4 midnight the nite b4
being the msn addict & nocturnal i am
dat was record-breaking man
haha
fever
headache
blocked nose
slight cough
could feel a sore throat brewing
was standing in front of my fridge last nite
deciding which med to take
with the mediocre medical knowledge i have
i compared the ingredients of the diff med
to see which one "covers" more illnesses
hahaha
finally popped 2 trusty Febs
and went to sleep

tmr is anson's full month celebration
i very much wanna go leh
but see how lah
see if i get any better
dun wanna spread my virus to a vulnerable 1-mth-old baby

ngee ann alumni band prac starts tmr
yay!!
jianjie, dun fly me aeroplane ah
muz go okay
since u can only go for 2 pracs b4 u fly back to UK
tink u muz be itching to play (read:blast) the instrument
hahaha

i'm not going turf club tmr aredi
my cousin fly me aeroplane
so sad
hmmph

gotta start work

ciao

my mum..

??????????
???????ok?
?????
?????????
???????????

this was wat my sms to my mum looked like on her hp
and can u believe it
she could actually guess wat i was saying!!
the msg said dat i was goin to my best friend's grandma's wake
requested dat she prepare some cleansing water (*see explanation) for me
also said dat i didn't bring my hp
and to call my best friend if she wanna look for me
i sent the sms thru m1 website
and assumed dat the chinese words i typed will get thru as per normal
apparently not
but being the wonderful mum she is
she really noes me well and could guess my intentions
hahaha
when i got home last nite the water was prepared
so i didn't realise the confusion caused until i checked my hp
coz she sms-ed me asking wat i was saying
it's only until this morning when i clarified wif her
dat i realised she guessed her way through
wonderful, isn't she? =)

* we grow this plant called ang huay (directly translates to "red flower")
everytime someone in the family goes to a wake
mum will pluck some of the leaves and put them in a container of water
leave it at the door for the person to cleanse before entering the house

to all my friends whom i sms-ed ydae
so sorry for the confusion
apparently
my sms appeared as though it was sent using my hp
and showed no signs whatsoever dat it was via internet
so everyone was like "huh? never bring hp still can sms??"
hahaha
sorry ah
1st time using the internet sms function lah

back to work now
sighh

handphone-less..

enuff said
haha
i'll be uncontactable today
unless u know my office number

i have quite a lot to update
though i've been staying up late
(except for last nite when i slept b4 midnight)
but i haven't really got the time to write
coz i've been playing the role of aunt aggy recently
to a few of my friends
not dat i mind of coz
really glad dat i can be of help
in making someone's day better

till later

reunion..

nostalgic

dinner was okay
they set up a huge shelter on the track
so it's not so bad lah
i thot it'll really be on the field
haha
food was served by rama thai restaurant
but the shark's fin was so NOT fantanstic loh
tasted only tau gey and crabmeat
the rest of the dishes were okay
but i'd say it's not really worth $50
alrite lah
i wasn't there for the food
was there for the pple
did a hell lot of catching up
girls are working
guys are either in their honours yr
or serving their long army contract (navy & air force)
everyone's doing well
took alot of photos
can't wait for them to email me
den i can load for u guys to see =)
as i alighted the bus
and walked thru the side gate
memories juz flooded back
i always like to visit my schools
and reminisce all the good old times
all the fun and silly things we did
all the happy and sad memories
all the events dat happened
all the people i know
really fun to recollect memories and talk about them
and lament about how old we are now
hahaha

junyang went
but not wayne (a.k.a. JJ lin) or stefanie sun
tink they r too busy wif their albums to bother about their alma mater
my friend was complaining to us
how all her friends kept asking whether junyang will be there
and she simply rolled her eyes
we were commenting dat we never thot junyang was cute
but realised now dat he actually looks quite good
anyone wants his number??
hahaha

was laughing most of the time
coz someone will suddenly bring up something silly dat we used to do
and everyone will juz add on details
and we'll all just laugh about it
visited the council room
there were 3 girls resting there
they are from the 28th council
we simply told them we were from the 21st council
and walked around as if we owned the place
(haha, seniors always win)
complained about how much they changed the layout
and how everything used to be
the 3 juniors sprang a surprise on us by starting a cheer
took us by surprise but we were fast enough to respond
haha
tink it's just in us
somehow, we remembered
nice feeling to cheer again
but sometimes when u tink about it
it's kinda silly to cheer yourself hoarse during events
i remember that i used to prepare honey water wif lemon
for the entire council of 40 pple during sports day preparations
those days were really fun
cheering bonded us and kept us together
and the togetherness spirit felt good
everthing ended ard 10.30
a few of my friends went town for ktv and chilling session
i didn't join them coz i've agreed to meet jessie and her fren, michael
met them at holland v
and we went coffee club
i had a coffee milkshake and shared a mudpie wif jessie
damn sinful sia
chatted and crapped till the place close at 1am
was actually quite tired b4 i met them
but dunno y
i'm pretty much awake now
muz be the coffee ah
but i've always thot dat i'm immune to caffeine leh
hmmm
tink muz go try and sleep
got a long day tomorrow

nitey

i was so traumatised..

lazy

was woken up juz now and asked to buy 4D
i tell u ah
u better give me a nice treat
whether the numbers open later or not
hahaha =Þ

was on MC on wed
nanfeng, i DID NOT chao keng okay
was sleeping when u msn-ed me
extracted my top-right wisdom tooth
really wasn't my day man
the dentist din wait long enuff for the anaesthesia to take effect
immediately after jabbing me
she ji tao put her pliers into my mouth and extracted the damn tooth
causing a hell lot of trauma loh
i was kinda shaken after the ordeal
then ah
i had to go BUY MY OWN MED
becoz the polyclinic doesn't carry it
then ah
i waited almost 45 mins for the pharmacist to come
juz to take the blardy med out of the cabinet
i dun understand loh
i've got the official prescription
and i do not need further medical advice
y can't i juz buy it?!
wth
then ah
after i got home and was changing out of my pants
i scrapped my right shin against the corner of my bed
trust me
it's really not a pretty sight to see skin stuck on furniture
i'm not sure whether the bone was exposed
but ah
the wound was white (instead of flesh-pink) colour
i dunno lah
all i know is dat it hurt like hell
and it's still hurting now
then ah
(yes, i'm not done yet)
i wanted to go get my mp3 player fixed
was going down the stairs
and i slipped and fell
didn't really know the extent of my injuries until i got home later
i've got..
a small bruise and scratch near my left toes
a small bruise and 2 scratches near my right fingers
scratches above my right elbow
huge bruise at the back of my right thigh
(it's still purple in colour and is abt 3/4 the size of my palm)
wat a day huh
i guess the only good thing dat happened
was dat i got a 1-for-1 replacement for my mp3 player
the tech claims dat it's new lah
but i doubt it
but it does look new and much nicer than mine
heh
was so tired after so many traumas
i slept in the evening
mum woke me up for dinner at 9+pm
and i cldn't go back to slp until 3am

sighhhh
w.a.t. a. d.a.y

nanfeng, yes, i tink this is my best layout so far too
and i noe u dislike pink
i'm trying to make it blue
but blogger doesn't have a template wif a nice blue dat i like
if u are nice to me
i'll consider making a teeny weeny corner orange
specially for u ok
hahaha

paperpencil, ur blog looks really interesting
thanks for dropping by
and yeah, ponstan does help
i'm got them from my previous dentist
=)

gotta run
attending a $50-dinner on the field of SAJC
it's like a last dinner kindof thing
before the college moves

later