r.a.n.d.o.m.

when something happens
i almost always have the kick to blog about it
but everytime i blog
i'm bound to forget something
either dat
or by the time i get an opportunity to blog
the kick is no longer there
and somehow the thoughts do not flow as smoothly
so now i'm trying to recall all the little little events
dat i wanted to blog but didn't
the events are not chronological order
i'm juz writing as the thots come to me
heh

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任贤齐 - 《天使也一样》

你为什么不说话
说真的我好心疼你这样
你这样为了他，茶不思饭不想
而这一切我都看在眼里啊

而他也搬出你的家
爱情没有你想象中可怕
你看外面的太阳，温暖而明亮
你可以飞翔飞到我的天堂

天使也一样，也一样会受伤
就算天塌下来，也有我来扛
某年某月的伤，此时此刻遗忘
我会在你身旁到地老天荒

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

而他也搬出你的家
爱情没有你想象中可怕
你看外面的太阳，温暖而明亮
你可以飞翔飞到我的天堂

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

天使和你一样，也一样会受伤
看着你的泪光，痛在我胸膛
不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只因为你而发光

不管风雨多狂，我是你温柔的避风港
我的爱只为你、只为你、都只为你，而发光

was tinking of wat songs to download the other day
and this song came to my mind
there was a time
when me and my coffee club colleagues
hit the ktv room pretty often
it was kaiting who introduced this song to us
dunno y
we were kinda crazy over it for quite a while
but now dat i listen to it again after so long
i still tink it's very nice =)
the lyrics were typed by me leh
coz i cldn't find it online
or mayb, i didn't search hard enuff
hahaha
the song brought back memories
mostly good ones
1 ½ yrs is quite a long time u noe
to be working in 1 place
though the pay was pathetic
it was really fun
and i actually looked forward to work
unlike now
i joined dbs last apr
it's not even 1 ½ yrs yet
and i've been dragging myself to work
sighh
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my mum's student actually recognises me
i boarded the train
this guy boarded from another door
we walked towards 2 empty seats
our eyes met
and he gave me the i-know-you look
and i gave him the u-look-like-u-noe-me-but-i-really-dun-rem-who-u-r look
looking at my confused face
he offered, "我是你妈妈的学生。"
i was like, "oh..ok.." (waiting for him to offer his name)
*silence*
it was kinda awkward
so..i continued listening to my mp3s
and he continued fiddling wif his hp
i was going thru in my head
all my mum's students who noe me
came up with only 1 possibility
decided to take the chance and finally asked
"are u jonathan?"
"no, i'm jackson.."
"oh.." *blank stare*
"my sister was ur mum's student too..ling li.."
"oh!!"
i remember the girl and also remember she has an elder bro
but i totally have no impression how her bro look like
hahaha
so pai seh
anyway
we had some small talk
before alighting at the same stop
and went our separate ways
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toked to randy on the phone for 2+ hrs
he's my JC fren
funny thing is
having known him since 1998
dat nite was the 1st time we chatted on the phone
actually, dat was the first time we had such a long conversation
involving topics other than school
we met again at the SAJC dinner
he asked me to find out if DBS is hiring temp staff
the following working day
i did and sms-ed him some info
but he din reply/call
turned out dat he was sick and slept thru the day
replied me at 2am saying he'll call me the next day to find out more
i said ok and told him to rest well
realising dat i was still awake
he called and somehow we chatted till 4+am
from the job to his gf and ex-gfs to me
kinda amazing huh
=)
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the day i went visiting my godson (pillow)
i walked from nanfeng's house to the mrt
something made me take the route
dat passes my ex-bf's house
it's not the yearning kind of feeling
more like the curious kind of feeling
i wanna find out how i'll feel
and wat kind of memories will come back
so i walked
upon reaching the carpark
i saw the result of all the noise he had to put up wif
shelters, covered walkways to the bus-stops
all done up nicely
nearing his block
i instinctively looked for his car
found it without much effort
circled around it for a while
looked at all the changes made
yes, no doubt memories came back
both good and bad
but everything seemed so faraway
like it happened eons ago
and thinking about them
brings about a kind of bitter-sweet feeling
looking up to his lighted bedroom window
i imagined him looking down at the same time and spotting me
(haha, so drama rite..like tv show)
i imagined walking around in his house again
more memories came back
both good and bad
recollecting all my thoughts
no heartache
no regrets
no hard feelings
walking towards the mrt
i realised i've aredi closed dat chapter of my life