just some thoughts..

pondering

3 breakups in a month
all involving my closest frens
kinda set me thinking about certain issues
especially with regard to fidelity and presence
are they closely related?
or even inter-dependent?
i’ve heard many stories of infidelity
and all sorts of reasons/excuses for it
in my opinion
infidelity is never justifiable
all the so-called reasons
are just ways of pushing the blame to the other party
“things just happen”
“you didn’t have time for me”
“you weren’t there when i needed you”
and stuff like dat

being separated from my neighbour for 23 days now
with another 13 days to go
(i know it’s not a long time, but it seems like eternity to me)
i tink it’s really agonizing for both parties
human beings, guys included
need presence
(u know, i’ve never heard him say “i miss u” so often before)
heehee
just the other nite
i was feeling all depressed and pms-y
coz i was pining so much for him
and i found myself struggling to remember
how everything was like before 8 jan
his smile
his hug
his hand
his touch
everything
of coz i could remember
but the memories seemed so distant and fuzzy
and that got me even more depressed
as i braced myself up
collected my thoughts
and got a hold on my emotions
i started looking at all the things dat involved us
(i kept a little bag of things and a “diary”)
and felt the closeness once again =)

with that
i started tinking about my frens
who were victims of long-distance relationships
as in, being far away for a really long time
i feel really sad for them
but i’m glad they all moved/are trying to move on

i’m not condoning infidelity
of coz it’s not right
i agree it’s really not easy
to maintain a long-distance relationship
and i can admit
i’m not sure if i would be able to survive one
one can’t help it when feelings fade
due to a multitude of reasons
BUT he/she should be responsible enough
to handle the situation maturely
and not two-time the other party
and then come up wif plenty of excuses to justify the act
i’m saying this becoz
a guyfren of mine is now suffering hell
due to the irresponsibility of his gf
who seems to me, is deluded and being extremely selfish
mayb she’s too prideful to admit dat she’s wrong
it’s definitely easier to push the blame and victimize herself
rather than admit that she had a change of heart
and was found out in a not-so-glamorous way

sigh

this incident reminded me of the betrayal episode
which i experienced wif my so-called fren
and made me realize just how fragile
relationships and friendships can be

to all my true frens out there
and of coz my neighbour in korat

i love you
muacks

FSD retreat

went bintan last friday for dept retreat
19th to 21st Jan
sponsored trip by the company
of the many many resorts in bintan
they chose to go to the only one dat i’ve been to twice
bintan lagoon resort
last yr, i went there twice
both times stayed at the villas aka chalets
oh well
trip is paid for by company
so cannot hiam lor

juz using this chance to intro my dept abit
it's known as the Financial Services Department (FSD)
made up of the following divisions……
Director’s Office (DO)
Accounting Group (APMD)
Management Reporting Group (MRG)
Derivatives Group (DG)
Settlement - Operations 1 (Ops 1)
Custody & Control - Operations 2 (Ops 2)
Process Management Office (PMO)

i belong in Ops 2
here’s a pic of the division















back: the only thorn among the roses (lol!) – jia jing
middle: celina, marilyn, anna, bee peng, windy, me, silvia, lydia
seated: chwee wei, jessica, belinda, margaret
steffie's absent coz she gotta nurse her baby
celina is our divisional manager
a young, zesty, mother of 3 boys
successful hor? *envious*

took this pic at “the kelong” on sat nite
it's an eating place situated in Nirwana Gardens
which is another resort in bintan
food was superb
10-course dinner lor
seafood was really fresh and yummy!
so much more satisfying than fri’s dinner lor
on fri, there were different ferry timings
more than half the dept left office at 3.30
to take the 5.30pm ferry
leaving a few of us to look after things
in case there were any last minute glitches
i was amongst the last to leave
took the 8pm ferry
reached the resort abt 9pm (bintan time)
went for dinner at the poolside
and the food was so disappointing lor
went rackey-ing around the place wif lydia
stumbled upon a club called silk
cover charge was IDR24,000 = s$4
but the lady at the door juz brought us in
bermudas, slippers and all
haha
staff in there were very nice
showing us ard the place
and telling us wat they have
there’s a live band
which played indo songs and english songs
we were pretty satisfied at the place
so went back out to get more of our pple to join us
only managed to get our other teammate, silvia
the rest were too tired to do anything
so went back to the place and settled on some somfy seats
juz finished placing our orders
when our colleagues from Ops 1 joined us too
didn’t know they are so happening lor!!
all the wildness and party energy never seen before

apart from the sumptuous dinner mentioned above
the whole of sat was pretty boring
cooped up in the meeting room
to talk about departmental issues
HR issues
yadda yadda
and every division had to put up some sort of presentation
to let the rest of the dept know
wat they do and why they are important
our director made it into a competition thingy
in order to further motivate us
the presentations were made up of powerpoint slides
and photos / videos
but we had much fun putting it together
and guess wat?
Ops 2 won 1st prize!!
heehee
300 bucks worth of watson’s voucher
nothing big la, but still... =)
so dat’s 20 bucks each
all the talks and presentation took up the entire day
after dinner at “the kelong”
some went for mahjong
others went for karaoke
we went to the karaoke rooms to take a look
there wasn’t enuff space for everyone lor
so we went silk again
me, silvia and lydia left early
coz lydia wanted to shower and sleep
silvia and i had 2nd round of drinking at the lobby
watching soccer on the big screen
and chatting the nite away
tried carlsberg wif guiness stout for the 1st time
not bad leh
quite nice taste =)

sunday morning was outdoor day
went to the nearby adventure thingy to play a few games
the place is managed by FOCUS
felt abit like back-to-school days
when i went for camps, orientation programs, OBS
where we played teambonding games
pretty fun la
coincidentally, 1 of the facilitators is my junior lor
he (andy) is from SAJC 22nd student council
i was from 21st mah
he recognised me and introduced himself to me
but up till now, i don't remember anything of him (oops)
memory not so good la
8 yrs ago leh, how to remember
some more the ratio of councillor to students is so huge
easier for them to remember 1 of me
than me remembering so many of them lor
anyways, the games were pretty fun
got to see the other side of my colleagues
and got to noe more pple from my dept also
besides the game facilitators
there were 2 other guys taking pictures and videos of us
in awkward positions and wif funny expressions
really laughed our heads off
when we watched the videos and saw the processed pics
at the end of the session
after the de-brief
we returned to the hotel and checked out
after having lunch and showering ourselves clean
reached singapore in the evening
and KO till the next morning lor
haven't felt so tired in ages already
age is really catching up liao
hahaha

健康就是美

but i'm still not 美 leh =(

i’ve been pretty healthy for the past 16 days
actually quite amazed dat my body can take it
tink i’ve exercised far more than i had
in the past few months added up lor
muz pen them down to further enhance my 成就感
hehe

mon – bodycombat @ bugis
tues – nua at home
wed – hot yoga
thurs – nua at home
fri – kickbox (lunchtime)
fri – bodycombat @ raffles (after work)
sat – blading @ ECP
sun – yogalates, therapy yoga, blading @ ECP

mon – hatha yoga
tues – cycling class @ bugis
wed – nua at home
thurs – erica’s bdae dinner @ parkway
fri – dept retreat @ bintan
sat – dept retreat @ bintan
sun – dept retreat @ bintan

mon – nua at home
tues – boxercise class @ bugis
wed – hot yoga
thurs – gym workout (lunchtime)
thurs – ABT @ orchard
fri – goin for dinner & drinks my girlfrens
but jin say she might wanna go gym
if she wants, den either I go wif her
or I go for yoga
and meet them for drinks after dat
still waiting for her answer

see, quite a healthy lifestyle rite??
hehehehe
but ah
the 成就感 is like emotional only leh
as in like, proud of myself dat
i am actually capable of so much physical activity
no physical confirmation lor
at the end of the first week
i actually slimmed down by 1 kg
zhenjin said overall i looked slimmer
but i tink she’s juz consoling me lor
coz all the fats at the unwanted areas are still intact lor
so, i dare not imagine
which part of my body became 1kg less =~(
and then ah
2nd week i put on the 1 kg again lor
haizzz
the only consolation i get is dat
my hair is pretty soft now
so it can be quite 美美 at times
(at times only! coz i still get bad hair days)
coz every time i go gym or yoga
i’ll bring hair treatment
and sit in the steam room for as long as i can
feels really good to juz sit, relax
and let the steam do all the work

haven’t plan for any gym/yoga classes
for coming weekend yet
coz got a few things dat i need/want to do
1) pack my wardrobe
2) tidy up mp3s in my comp
i noticed a lot of duplicates and unnamed ones
3) send in neighbour’s car for servicing
4) buy contact lenses
coz i tore 1 during the retreat =(
5) wanna go shop for gym/yoga wear
while i’m still at this exercise thingy
muz “invest” abit of money in
so dat i can keep up this exercise/yoga regime
6) might be goin for a doggy outing
wif fellow forumers from dogsforum.sg
7) feel like goin blading or swimming
long time no swim liao
but muz depend on weather
madness lor
keep raining non-stop
island-wide some more
damn sian
but recently not too bad
so probably can exercise outdoors
yay!! anybody interested?

(haiyo, like so many things to do in 2 days hor)

oh! time to go home!
these few days quite slack in office
so will probably be catching up on my blogging
look out for my posts!! =D

36 days =~(

rainy

4 days crawled past
ever since i changed job
every week seemed to fly past
i enjoy my work
i love my life
i love my friends
and in the midst of all the happiness
days, weeks and months simply flew past
in the blink of an eye
but the past 4 days went by so slowly
i could hardly believe it
32 more days leh
how? how? how?!
now i've to plan ahead
make plans for every free minute
so as to occupy myself
not let my wild imagination get the better of me
and to reduce the longingness
well, looking on the bright side
at least now it doesn't feel weird to tok on the fone
when we 1st got together
and our parents were in the process of finding out
it wasn't very nice to go over to each other's house
or should i say, it's kinda awkward lar
coz of the fact that i knew his family
so long before i knew him
and my family knew him
so long before he knew me
if my memory serves me rite
we only talked on the fone once
for like 10 mins?
having the same thought in our heads
we were like "eh, very funny hor, so near, yet tok on the fone"
hahahaha
really lor
it felt so funny and we simply gave up
now, hearing his voice at the end of the day
even for a short while
completes my day

hello 2007!!

ok, i noe the yr is not dat new aredi
but still
happy new year, everyone!!
had dinner wif the same gang of pple
as in, the christmas gang
lol
ate buffet at marina south
zhen fa live seafood
grease, smoke and all
i enjoyed myself =)
went nearby to play pool while waiting for 2 couples
sharon wif joseph & jiehao wif icy
went marina to watch the fireworks
pretty boring at first
but finale was nice though
here's the videos!! =D
sorry ah, fone 3 megapixels nia
so quality not very good





after the fireworks
it took us eons to get out of the carpark lor
went cyclone for a drink
it's a ktv pub along circular road

this year my entire family went out to party
leaving my poor chino home alone
my folks and sis went esplanade
reached home at 2am
me and neighbour reached home at 4am
my bro and sis-in-law reached home at 6am
wat a way to start 2007!

resolutions anyone?
i gave up setting them la
coz i'll forget wat they were
even before i start to accomplish them