just some thoughts..

pondering

3 breakups in a month
all involving my closest frens
kinda set me thinking about certain issues
especially with regard to fidelity and presence
are they closely related?
or even inter-dependent?
i’ve heard many stories of infidelity
and all sorts of reasons/excuses for it
in my opinion
infidelity is never justifiable
all the so-called reasons
are just ways of pushing the blame to the other party
“things just happen”
“you didn’t have time for me”
“you weren’t there when i needed you”
and stuff like dat

being separated from my neighbour for 23 days now
with another 13 days to go
(i know it’s not a long time, but it seems like eternity to me)
i tink it’s really agonizing for both parties
human beings, guys included
need presence
(u know, i’ve never heard him say “i miss u” so often before)
heehee
just the other nite
i was feeling all depressed and pms-y
coz i was pining so much for him
and i found myself struggling to remember
how everything was like before 8 jan
his smile
his hug
his hand
his touch
everything
of coz i could remember
but the memories seemed so distant and fuzzy
and that got me even more depressed
as i braced myself up
collected my thoughts
and got a hold on my emotions
i started looking at all the things dat involved us
(i kept a little bag of things and a “diary”)
and felt the closeness once again =)

with that
i started tinking about my frens
who were victims of long-distance relationships
as in, being far away for a really long time
i feel really sad for them
but i’m glad they all moved/are trying to move on

i’m not condoning infidelity
of coz it’s not right
i agree it’s really not easy
to maintain a long-distance relationship
and i can admit
i’m not sure if i would be able to survive one
one can’t help it when feelings fade
due to a multitude of reasons
BUT he/she should be responsible enough
to handle the situation maturely
and not two-time the other party
and then come up wif plenty of excuses to justify the act
i’m saying this becoz
a guyfren of mine is now suffering hell
due to the irresponsibility of his gf
who seems to me, is deluded and being extremely selfish
mayb she’s too prideful to admit dat she’s wrong
it’s definitely easier to push the blame and victimize herself
rather than admit that she had a change of heart
and was found out in a not-so-glamorous way

sigh

this incident reminded me of the betrayal episode
which i experienced wif my so-called fren
and made me realize just how fragile
relationships and friendships can be

to all my true frens out there
and of coz my neighbour in korat

i love you
muacks