long silent ride..

i’m still single
any takers??
haha
…
met him for a talk [read: fruitless] last nite
said he’s open-minded
mentally prepared for both best- and worst-case scenarios
wouldn’t blame me
i’m free to say anything
he’s all ears
juz say wat i tink
bullshit
barely halfway into wat i wanted to say
he defensively refuted back in a quarrelsome manner
and said all the things that he said before
he can’t seem to let go of stuff
he’s already got a fixed mindset of me
dat i haven’t done enough
and dat i’m simply an angry person
quote
even if i wipe the slate clean now, you would still be angry at something rite?
unquote
dat, plus some other things he said last nite
made me unable to imagine a future with him
…
walked out of the car 3 times
at the 3rd time, i blurted out
look who’s toking abt walking away man
he refuted [still in a quarrelsome manner]
wat walk out? this is my car leh!
2 hokkien words
lan lan
i can’t say anything else, can i?
he’s doin all the things he dun like me to do
and he doesn’t seem to realise it AT ALL
someone shld buy him a mirror
all the ideals, expectations i tried so hard to compromise
mean nothing to him at all
all juz a bunch of bullshit
he doesn’t practise wat he preach
how can i trust him for life
…
well, tink i better stop here
lest pple tink i’m trying to demonise him and gain pity
to me
there’s no absolute right or wrong in relationships
it takes 2 to clap
it’ll be unfair to push all the blame to either party
oftentimes, things juz happen
…
to conclude
i was told to tink abt wat he said
he din even say anything new
i’ve heard all that before
dats exactly wat i’ve been tinking abt since he broke up wif me last wed morning
everyone’s telling me
aiyah, nothing wrong with you guys wat, juz have to try give in to each other loh
if you tink he’s worth it, den juz keep trying lah
can work things out together if u both put in the effort
after giving much thought
i met him with the intention to say "let’s juz try continue trying"
well, looks like he’s not very keen on the idea
i’m tired
really
i’ve learnt that quotes like "love conquers all"
and "love endures everything" are bullshit
…
oh yah, to all u guys out there
when u break up wif a girl
u dun haf to tell her best friend to take care of her
i’m not sure about u guys and ur best friends
but i can tell u
girls and their best friends take care of each other all the time
not only during times of sorrow
and they tell each other everything
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i sat in a banana-coloured evo 7 on sun nite
erm..no, this has no link watsoever to wat i juz said
juz wanna mention
for the fun of it
haha